17.

You’re more than I hoped

Would ever be mine to hold

Baby please come home

16.

Tiptoeing down halls

Just trying not to wake you

As I run away

15.

Goodbye seems so small

When traded by anyone

Except you and I

14.

Blending and bleeding

Trying to understand all

The ways you killed us

13.

I can’t seem to fight

With this ever-present dark

Help me find a way

12.

The woods enveloped
And swallowed you whole I was
Left calling your name

The Cardiologist's Sea

We sailed our love out, into the ocean

Of life and we fought through the waves

We fought against the thought, against the notion

That we would dig each other’s graves

So when you fell overboard and called for me

To save you from the fate that loomed

I found I could not reach you through the sea

Of water between us, I found we were doomed

The roiling, boiling waves of this world

Took you from me, and I couldn’t save you

I’m sorry, I wanted to - but my sails unfurled

And I was blown far away too

Stay strong, find your way

I hope we meet again someday

I never intended for us to end this way

I hope someday we can both say

That though the waters dark and gray

Pulled us each away

We found a life we needed and wanted

And the love that we shared never left us haunted

11.

You failed to see the
Warning Signs, our ship sunk with
Lifeboats still attached

10.

Drink my words deeply
Believe the lie "I love you"
For lies taste so sweet

9.

Heartbreakingly soft;
Your voice repeats "I loved you"
While I walk away

8.

Find yourself, then come
Back, I'll wait. Just don't forget
What you left behind

7.

Tiny love notes in
Bottles float on the ocean
Our end: words unsaid

6.

We were raised to be
Faithless, lying, cheating people
Please don't be surprised

5.

Carve me from the light

Find my beginnings and breathe

Me in, breathe me out

Rememberings

Remember when the car sped off our lane?

Our tires slipped on a road doused with rain, 
And in a little town on the coast of Maine 
The world conspired to empty your veins

Sirens wailed and cold light flashed in the night 
And pain numbed my head, blurred my failing sight 
Yet I called on all I knew that was right 
And asked you to try, and asked you to fight

4.

To fail in this game

Is to find myself without

Meaning, comfort, home